Interesting. A 10 year old post just flashed in which I was talking about collecting beer cans for Bibles. I was so zealous to see Bibles put in the hands of others, that I did that. I actually walked ditches collected cans to recycle for Bibles. I had it figured that one bag would equal one Bible.
So much has changed. Nowadays with gas prices that wouldn’t be worth it. And for all practical purposes it didn’t seem “worth it” then. I mean who does that kind of thing? And yet…
I was able to put Bibles into the hands of more people during that time than I have in the last 10 years. Why? Because I was doing SOMETHING. Now I’m not. I haven’t even thought of doing something.
At the time I had a lifetime goal that is waaaaaay beyond my personal reach. It still is a lifetime goal (that I’ve forgotten about).
But at the time I remember I was at least moving forward. Now I’m not. It’s kind of the same with YouTube videos. I’m there and I’m posting and I barely get 1 view per video. (I’m really quite bad at editing and online storytelling, though I’m getting better). I get discouraged and think maybe I should just quit. And yet… I’m doing something. More than nothing. And while it’s perhaps not the most efficient thing, and I’m sure there are better ways, those “better” ways have not opened. I have plenty of closed doors that seem even barred shut. But if I come forward my something is more than my nothing. And…I’m learning.
I hope one day that I will have the ability to meet my lifetime goal of Bibles donated (100,000). I’m currently at 794. Not even 1%. Perhaps one day I’ll have influence somewhere that I can inspire others to help reach that goal. But for now I’m barely a voice. But may my voice be a something more than a nothing until God himself increases through me.
