Reading through Ecclesiastes is heavy honestly.  And then to discover today that a college friend has been suffering from Stage 4 colon cancer, suffering quietly and alone now for several months.  I am grieved.

I am grieved as he has not been able to find a wife and have a family of his own.   He is sick.

Tears.

And I think, if I died today, what would I feel like?  As in, if I knew it was to be my last day?

The truth is something I don’t want to share on social media.

We try out best in life and it seems like some fall through many cracks.  I don’t know why things come so easily for others and their hearts desires and dreams come to pass.  And others try hard and nothing comes to pass.

I’m not sure why this cancer diagnosis of his hits me so hard.  I guess because I still want to see more for his life.  Maybe he will live.  Maybe he won’t.  But I know many desires of his heart have yet to be fulfilled.  In that, I understand.